awaiting her second


Photographing this mama and her first took be back to not long ago when I was awaiting the arrival of my second as well. During that time I came across this poem about that special, yet emotional season of transitioning to life with two children. It put me to tears. Maybe it was just all those pregnancy hormones, or maybe it just got to the heart of the matter. Either way, it touched me. So, today I want to share it with you as well.

“As I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship, suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you? Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch you having to share me as you’ve never done before. I hear you telling me in your own way, ‘Please love only me’. And I hear myself telling you in mine, ’I can’t,’ knowing, in fact, that I never can again. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again. And I begin to realize that I haven’t taken something from you, I’ve given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you — only differently. And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you’ll never share my love. There’s enough of that for both of you.”

Ashley's motherhood session was a special one. One that visually tells a story of a woman who has chosen to have faith in such a delicate time. Trust when it's hard to trust. Look at the positive when it'd be far too easy to focus on any complications as she prepares to meet her son tomorrow. I love stories like these because they challenge me to change how I myself choose to think and react in moments when life throws tough stuff your way. She has handled it all with such grace and peace. I am so excited for you three!